Welcome to Living Between! Join me on this vulnerable, authentic, and spiritual journey where I document experiences, explore mindset changes, and record the formation of opinions as I rediscover who I am. After almost 2 years of documenting the process of rediscovering myself, I’ve recaptured a significant part of who I am, so I’d like to reintroduce myself. I go by Lynda, a pen name, and I am the author of this blog and a spiritual healing designer.

I spent a decade of my life in toxic relationships. I was unseen and unheard by my so-called partners, and even worse, by myself.

All of that has changed since I began writing this blog.

Part of what I’ve reclaimed in the last two years is my spirituality. I started my spiritual exploration while I was still married, but I was stifled, told I was evil, and I couldn’t openly pursue the depths of my spirit. I had to do hide my practices, learn in secret, and quietly hold the wisdom of the Universe in my head.

For a while, I was scared to share this about myself because of the way I was controlled and silenced by my former spouse. I still am. Those stories of fear my brain tells me haven’t disappeared.

After a long road of learning to be who someone else wanted me to be, I’d lost sight of who I am. I virtually ignored myself at every turn, and on the other side of it all I had no idea who the heck I was. I’m sure many can relate. Which is why I decided to get to know myself again. Which is kind of a strange experience, if I’m honest; I think we all sort of assume that we know who we are just in general.

And also because I’d been in the habit of not paying much attention to myself.

But I realized that in order to get to know myself, I needed to not only face the fact that I had indeed lost myself, I needed to be willing to spend some time with and focus on me, the same way that I pour into someone else when I want to get to know them.

The way I chose to do that is by sifting through my thoughts and making them not only tangible but (relatively) coherent. What better place to do that than on a blog? As I spend time with myself, it’s easy to just go along with what I am doing without really thinking about what I think about it or what thoughts and feelings it is bringing up in me. But by having an avenue for deeper exploration (i.e. blog articles waiting to be written), I have a reason to pay closer attention and take notice.

This is something I do naturally with the people I care about, taking notice of what they do, how they feel, who they are, and committing it to memory so that I can remember every detail. But it’s not something I’ve done for myself. Until I started this blog.

I’m doing this for me. I owe it to myself, and I would regret it if I never tried. And although it is terrifying to put myself out there in this way, I also believe that by having an open dialogue about my rebuild process, others may be encouraged as they rebuild themselves.

And now that I’m choosing to embrace my spirituality, my gifts, I am finally beginning to fulfill my purpose.

If you do stumble across this page, whether you happen to read the blog or choose to take advantage of my spiritual offerings, thank you for stopping in. I hope you get something out of it, whether that be a new perspective, a word of encouragement, or a healing balm for your soul.

xo Lynda

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Two things!

One, please note that the names of everyone in this blog have been altered to protect the people I write about. My main goal is to explore my experiences and my growth, not air anyone’s dirty laundry out. Any likeness to people you know in real life are probably coincidental. (I mean what are the chances? It’s a pretty big world!)

Two, the thoughts and opinions I express in this blog are merely a result of my personal experiences to this point in my life. If there is anything I have misrepresented, overlooked, or have a blind spot for, feel free to leave a comment or email me at contact@livingbetween.net. (Yes, this includes typos. Let me fix my typos, please!) All I ask is that you always remain respectful.

Talk soon!
– Lynda –